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🌿 200hr hatha/vinyasa & 85hr prenatal yoga teacher
🌍 lover of travel, nature, art & humans
🌷 based in the sf bay area
@alextomkinsyoga

http://www.alextomkinsyoga.com/

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serene af 🌿
#summersolstice
asian squat #throwback
we can't go under it
we can't go over it
we've got to go through it
happy 23rd birthday to my soulmateeeeeeee. i miss the shit outta you! and i'm so blessed to have your weird ass in my life. thanks for being my homie. i love you nugget!!! @notkatrinaa
hawaiian air 🌊
silver linings.
as they say in the bay... yeeeeeee
VLOG #3 IS LIVE! Here's a preview!
If you have a spare few minutes just follow the link in my bio or type "Alex Tomkins" into YouTube to find my channel 😎

This weeks episode is a little less uplifting as I decided to talk about some negative thoughts/emotions I've been experiencing so far this week. Maybe it turns into a bit of a ramble but hey ho.
You can also watch all my singing videos on there so like, comment, subscribe✨ love love love! 
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maybe i make it seem like i always have all my shit together or like my life is one big fairytale full of good vibes and peace and love... some days it really feels like that and believe me, i'm totally blessed and want for nothing. but in truth, i still have days when i feel like i'm back at square one; days when my arch nemesis, depression & his grotesque minion, anxiety come knocking on my door. i have days when i look in the mirror, see my acne scars and the first word that crosses my mind is "ugly". i have days when i fuck up so badly in my relationships and professional life. i struggle with forgiving myself and letting go of things i'm ashamed of. i have days when i feel sick to my stomach worrying about what others think of me. today was one of those days. i wish i didn't care at all but honestly, i do. is it good or bad to want the people who i value and respect to view me in the same light? i don't know but it definitely causes some difficulty for me. 
through it all, i keep breathing... i repeat mantras to myself consistently until my thought habits change permanently. "i love you, i love you, i love you" over and over again like a broken record. and when the voice starts to waver, starts to question whether it's worth it because all it seems to get in response is hate, fear, pain, anger, i scream it louder and with  passion and ferocity and truth. "i love you, i love you, i love you!!!" and finally... when both voices - both opposing forces - are so tired and down trodden and sick of fighting... there is a silence and a stillness... and then a smile. 
love wins.
thank you, thank you, thank you.
"Let gratitude be the pillow upon which you kneel to say your nightly prayer" πŸ™πŸΌ
-- #MayaAngelou
pick your battles wisely. learn when to keep your mouth shut. realise when it's best not to say anything at all. sometimes your ego wants to confront and your pride wants to belittle but can you decide when it's really worth it? 
there can be mountains of value in silence. 
ask yourself,
is it kind?
is it necessary?
is it true? 
take a deep breath and decide. 🌺🌸🌷 #fridayfeels